How could a nice little boy like I was at five turn into such a disappointment to all who saw in me something much bigger than the continued failure I proved to be as I careened through school expulsions, job firings, drugs, divorces and terrifying encounters with a leveling, ancient fear that finally made a spiritual warrior out of me? Much as I wanted to conform to the upper middle-class mold I was born into, a curious, intuitive, sensitive, philosophical...