I lost my joy of loving God and loving others as myself, as I expressed my thirsting and hungering for God in unhealthy ways. Instead of utilizing God's light to guide me, I often turned to alcohol and the -isms that had become part of my life: workaholism, perfectionism, caretakerism, and athleticism. My refusal to accept that I had developed the disease of alcoholism, after drinking normally for twenty-five years, created insane scenarios,...